Hello everyone. I know you just wanted an update, and I'm sorry this one is newer than that one, I just figured you'd like an update for sure, and this maybe, so I did this second, which actually means you read it first blah blah blah.
So that update was so hard to me because frankly, every picture of me reminds me how overweight I am. So, I'm going public! I need cheerleaders, supporters! I've tried lots of other techniques, and so far, well, you can see how well they've worked. So, as embarrassing as it is, I'm going to publish my weight everyday, and maybe my calorie intake too. My problem is that I do a really good job for like 4 days, and then a really bad job for 4 more. So I just pretty much stay the same. After Elijah was born, I managed to go from 217 lbs. to 155.5 lbs. by the time he was about 13 months old. Then I moved to West Virginia, which scared me so much that I ate and stopped exercising until I weighed 178.5, at which point I found out I was pregnant with Caleb. I did a mediocre job at controlling that weight gain, and delivered him at 206.5 (better than the 227 I weighed the day I delivered Elijah). And now here we are at 192.5.
Anyway, I want to do this publicly, so that maybe I can just stick to it longer. Long enough to really make new habits. I know lots of really skinny people who eat a dessert and a girls night out, but at the baby shower, they don't eat like 8 chocolate covered peanut butter rice crispy thingys, like me. I'm trying to avoid extremes like quitting sweets altogether, because my experience has showed me I am better at that than having SOME of something. And I can't do it forever, so when that end date comes, I binge big time.
So, my goal is this:
1.) Ultimately, I want to weigh 135 pounds. When I got home from my mission I randomly weighed myself once (it didn't used to be an obsession like it is now!) and I was at 138. Plus, for my height, a healthy weight range is 115 lbs. to 154 lbs., so 135 is pretty healthy, I think.
2.) Never have seconds of a dessert again. Maybe this seems extreme, but people, I have a problem I am going to have to monitor my whole life. It's like I've been an alcoholic. No matter how long I live, I am going to always have to watch this.
3.) Eat within the food guide pyramid. You see, regular food is certainly delicious, too! Especially when I'm "limiting" sweets, I eat a lot more regular food.
4.) Exercise daily. I love to run. It's hard to run when you're as heavy as me, but it makes me feel so good. I can't wait for the day that I'm not carrying 57.5 extra pounds on my runs!